stupid fucking vid

[lierdumoa]

Okay, so someone explain to me this whole "finishing a vid is like giving birth" thing. I don't get it. Cause I'm not feeling any post vidding depression. In fact, the only emotion I can properly identify right now is hatred.

Does anyone else finish a vid and, like, want to kill it? Wish it were human so they could strangle it to death with their bare hands? No? Just me, huh?

Does this mean if I ever have children I'm going to want to murder them?

Like, I hate the ending. I really, really, really hate it. I think it sucks, for one thing. It doesn't seem to flow. I didn't get to fit in half the shit I thought I'd be able to fit in.

I'm DEEPLY, DEEPLY upset that I didn't get to work in the shot of Dom grabbing Letty's ass. Okay, so it's a slash vid. There's really no reason to use that scene. But it's, like, my favorite scene in the entire movie. I am heartbroken, I tell you. Heartbroken.



Okay, whatever. I'll fix this shit later. After my beta's look at it. Cause I really can't look at it anymore tonight. I'll probably spend the night reading Due South fic and poking at my Sanzo/Goku fic that was supposed to be a PWP and yet remains depressingly PG-13.



Real Life Update. I'm reapplying to college! As a freshmen. Though it occurs to me I've probably accumulated enough units, either through AP tests or simply taking college classes, to probably be able to apply as a sophomore. Yeah. I've got approximately two weeks to get my shit together. And then mail it. I'll be applying to USC, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and San Francisco State. I doubt I'll have a problem getting into any of them but, you know -- just in case.

Why those in particular? Apparently they all have good film departments (well, except UC Berkeley, but I can transfer if I get into Berkeley). See, after a few months of whining, "Why can't I vid for a living?" I found myself staring at the Spiderman 2 teaser/trailer and thinking -- "I could do that."

"...I could get paid to do that."

So...yeah. Next semester I'll take some intro classes at a local film school. Next fall I'll be re-starting college as a film major. My parents should be very pleased considering the college I originally got accepted to was MIT and even doing a whole extra year is bound to be far, far cheaper at virtually any other college you can think of.

Heh -- I'm this much of a freak with vidding as a hobby. Just imagine what a freak I'll be when I'm doing this shit as a career.

All of you tremble in ph34r.

Comments

[permetaform]

heee ::hugs:: good shit with the major

did you get my email with the comments?

also? now you know my feelings about Gravity...

birthing and divx

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

I don't see it as birthing. It's creating and it's yours, but the blood and guts are strictly mental (I should wish it was only mental when I had babies). Usually I like the damned thing after I've FIRST finished it, it's only after I've edited it a thousand times that I grow to hate it like a toenail fungus.

Question: as a newbie vidder, PLEASE tell me your settings for divx avi's, pretty please? So far I've failed to utilize it successfully - my clips are a thing of pixilated horror and the files still are larger than they should be, but I've downloaded two of your vids and the clips are beautifully rendered (by you, of course, but also by divx).

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Yep! Got your e-mail.



also? now you know my feelings about Gravity...

Heh. Dude. I'm like -- does seething hatred count as "big emotion"?

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

God. The question was meant for permetaform, as it was her videos I had downloaded. Er.. I'm new at journaling, too?

I can tell you all about birthing babies, though.

Ducks head and leaves

Re: birthing and divx

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

it's only after I've edited it a thousand times that I grow to hate it like a toenail fungus.

Maybe that's the problem. I do most of my editing as I go. The changes I make after I get it back from my beta's are usually pretty small.

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Hee! Yeah, I do actually know how to compress with divx, which is what I'm doing for my latest vid. I just learned it recently, though. From permetaform. I could walk you through it if you want, or she probably has a VirtualDub tutorial up somewhere.

Re: birthing and divx

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

well I THINK I've edited it, see. But no. We gots to go over it and over it and over it... sigh

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

I would love it if you could walk me through it! So nice of you:)

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Do you have instant messenger of any kind? I have AIM and yahoo!

walking me through the maze

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

I'll check for a Virtual dub tutorial too, though. Wouldn't want to put you out tooo much ;)
G'night. Nice to meetcha

Re: walking me through the maze

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

ooh, you're still here. I can reinstall my yahoo messenger
Kass

Re: walking me through the maze

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

tell you what, it's going on midnight here. I wonder if you could email me about this sometime? valwp@yahoo.com. Thanks either way! :)

Kassidy

[andtheafterglow.livejournal.com]

i thought you are already in college? :)

[permetaform]

Heh. Dude. I'm like -- does seething hatred count as "big emotion"?

XD dude, I gotta remember that...

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Heh -- yes. That's what I meant with re-applying.

I went to MIT for a semester. I took a semester off. I took classes over the summer and this semester. I planned to go back in the spring, but I've since changed my mind. So now I'm applying to be a new student in the fall and will meanwhile be taking classes independently this spring.

Re: birthing and divx

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Heh -- well, I think I work on a smaller scale than you. I'll put about three seconds worth of clips down and fiddle with them, and fiddle with them, and fiddle with them, and then put down three more seconds and fiddle with those and come up with about four different patterns before going back to the previous three seconds and fiddling with those more. By the time I finally have clips filled in for the entire vid, everything has pretty much been edited to death and then back to life again.

Re: walking me through the maze

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Will do!

You did the "Gangsta's Paradise" one at BASCon, right? I remember that being one of the better ones.

[andtheafterglow.livejournal.com]

AHHH.

my life story.
i get it. :)

Re: birthing and divx

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

I think that speaks to our personalities. Yours is probably the better way, but I just wade in and throw stuff around, work with it some. Hopefully as I get better at this, the time factor will decrease. Well actually, it already has - a damned good thing.
Have you got some links to your vids on your LJ here? (I'm answering you from my email account.) Love to see what you're doing :)
Kass

Re: walking me through the maze

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

yep I did. Though I've re-edited since then . Who knew?

Re: birthing and divx

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

Yours is probably the better way, but I just wade in and throw stuff around, work with it some

Actually, most vidders I know don't vid like me. I know permetaform just tries to fill in her timeline. She'll shove all the scenes she wants, cut them down to fit, shove on more, until she fills up her whole timeline and then does most of her editing after. It's about the same amount of work involved, but not in the same order.



Hopefully as I get better at this, the time factor will decrease.

Buh? Whoa, really? It's been my experience that the time factor only increases. But then, every time I learn how to do something I try with my next vid to learn something more difficult. That way as certain skills become easier I'm acquiring new skills.



I have got all of my vids here on LJ in my memories under Vids (I don't know how familiar you are with LJ yet, but just go into my userinfo and click on the heart shaped icon at the top). Most of them are contextual. I'd recommend you watch "Pretty When You Cry" and "I See You Baby."

[khaleesian.livejournal.com]

I totally know what you mean. I even have a phrase for it. My 'hate stage'...the story I've just finished is crap, huge crap, I'm ashamed to even show it to a beta, it's the worst thing that's ever been written in English or many other Indo-European languages and is just a big sucking black hole of shittiness. So I wait a few days before I look at it again. And maybe I think, well, this part is okay. ;)

And like you, I edit as I go. Hmmmmm. Wonder if those two traits go hand in hand. Hmmmmm. (P.S. Can't wait for the vid!! :::hugs:::)

[lierdumoa.livejournal.com]

I totally know what you mean. I even have a phrase for it. My 'hate stage'...the story I've just finished is crap, huge crap, I'm ashamed to even show it to a beta, it's the worst thing that's ever been written in English or many other Indo-European languages and is just a big sucking black hole of shittiness.

Huh -- come to think of it I *did* go through a hate stage on my last few long fic (nothing like your long fic -- 6500 wds at the most). This is the first time I've felt like this about a vid, though.

Now whenever I can no longer stand to look at something I've done, I shove it off on my beta's. I reach a point where I'm like -- I don't know how to make it not suck. You tell me why it sucks so I can make it not suck.

[tehshiny.livejournal.com]

Yesss. That shall be the coolness. :D

Then you'll be close to me and I'll get to visit you...which I promise I will do...one day...in the future...distant future... :|