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I've spent the past few months rediscovering my love of my very first ship: Spuffy

But lately I'm starting to feel like every author in the AO3 tag is a racist SWERF.

I had a particularly traumatic experience yesterday with a WIP I'd been following.

I've liked some of the author's other stories. I thought this one had a particularly interesting premise: what if Riley got turned after he started visiting the suckhouse?

The author seemed like they were really trying, in the beginning, to be conscientious about representation of marginalized people.

The author wrote a scene in which Buffy has a nightmare about her awful soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend Riley cutting off pieces of her body to “make her fit in a box.” That scene was accompanied by a very long author’s note explaining that the author by no means believes that people who are born with missing limbs are less whole or less fully human and that the scene is my no means meant to perpetuate ableist beliefs.

Yesterday, the author posted the chapter in which Riley gets turned into a vampire. Riley is turned against his will, by a vampire sex worker. The scene is written as a sexual assault. The author, again, put very conscientious warnings on the chapter to protect people from being triggered by this sexual assault scene.

Meanwhile, the same chapter introduces an “exotic, foreign” dark-skinned vampire prostitute OC, and then promptly has said OC murdered at the hands of the story’s romantic lead.

Apparently the author thought the best way to establish that the story’s romantic male lead was 1) bisexual and 2) faithful devoted to the female lead (whom he is not actually dating yet) was to have him “resist the temptation” to fuck a “dirty brown foreign whore” and then kill said “dirty brown foreign whore” in his “pure white” Buffy’s honor.

The author didn’t even try to make it seem like Spike was killing the vampire prostitute for murdering humans. Spike instead has an entire mental rant about how prostitutes are worthless and pathetic and deserve death no matter how much he might want to fuck this particular one.

This is the same author who was so worried about offending the disabled and triggering sexual assault victims that they wrote entire paragraphs worth of author’s notes angsting about the importance of good, conscientious representation. But they saw nothing amiss with this horrifically offensive racist caricature of an OC they invented.

Not a moment of consideration for how non-white Spuffy fans might feel reading a scene like that. I suppose the author thought we’d be “flattered” by the dehumanizing sexual exotification of the dark skinned foreign other. I’m sure this all seemed really romantic in the author’s head.

I left a comment expressing how, well, blindsided I felt about the latest narrative turn.

I think the author responded, but I don't really want to read their response, because I suspect it will only make me angrier.

The author posted another chapter today.

The more the story gets into the dark underworld of vampire prostitution and "bite addicts" the more it feels like the author is using this fictional environment as "safe outlet" to express their very real contempt for real life sex workers and real life addicts.

The further the story goes along the more I get the impression that the author really does think that real life sex workers and drug addicts are less than human and better off dead and need to be punished for their very existence.

This isn't the first time I've been reading a Spuffy fic that started to feel like vitriolic SWERF propaganda halfway through. However, this is the first time the author used the death of an invented "exotically beautiful foreign dark-skinned duplicitous queer slut" OC to make their point.

I've been leaving encouraging comments on pretty much every chapter up to this point. I don't imagine I'll ever leave another comment on any of this author's fic ever again.

This experience is leaving a very bitter taste in my mouth.

How many more of the Spuffy WIP's I'm following are going to betray me like this?

On the one hand I want to find new fanfic to cleanse my palate. On the other, I'm not really feeling resilient enough to get emotionally invested in new fic.

I feel like I need a brand new fandom, but nothing new has caught my interest in ages.

Ugh.

Perhaps I should just go back to working on that original novel I started prior to the beginning of the pandemic.
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I agree with everything @theshmaylor has said [here]. And while that post does address both the need to block serial harrassers from comments and the need to block serial bad authors from search results, I'd like to talk a little more in depth about the issues with AO3's search function.

The search filtering options are SHIT when it comes to protecting people from triggering content. And blithely telling people  “it’s your job to curate your experience”  without acknowledging that the site oftentimes makes it nearly impossible to do so is a real asshole move.

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Fact: Blocking individual tags quickly becomes unreasonably, absurdly tedious if you’re doing multiple searches and have over 5 tags you want to block. 

And anyone who has been in fandom as long as I have has at least 10 tags they wanna permablock just counting NOTPs alone -- not even including triggers & squicks. 

Overshare time! 

In 2011 the Captain America kink meme was born and I developed a fondness for "tiny!Steve is tiny everywhere" fic, which later expanded into a general micropenis porn kink. In 2016, AO3's micropenis tag got flooded with Donald Trump porn. 

Lemme tell you, nothing kills the mood like having to physically type the name Donald Trump into an AO3 search form to exclude it from your current porn search. That's the kinda thing you want to be able to block once and then never have to think about ever, ever again.

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Fact: The most triggering stories are always untagged. 

The most offensive stories are written by people who lack the self-awareness to recognize their own racism/biphobia/misogyny/etc. Often it's not the trigger itself that is the issue, but rather how it is handled, and whether or not you were able to mentally prepare for it. 

People who tag racism are actually more likely to write fic that handles racial issues respectfully. It's the people who don't tag who tend to write the cringiest, most offensive, most stereotyped representations of POC.

Blocking tags, in this case, is useless. The best way to avoid stories like this is to avoid the authors who write them. 

It should be much easier to permanently exclude authors and/or specific stories from search results.

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Fact: The human brain forgets traumatic experiences.

Meaning, when I read a story that I hate, or that triggers me, I forget what it is called. I forget who wrote it. I forget what it’s about. 

Until I accidentally re-read it. 

And that happens OFTEN. And it shouldn’t happen at all. And it wouldn’t, if I could just permanently exclude specific stories and/or authors from search results.

There’s nothing worse than to start reading a fic and think “Wait, I’ve read this before. Why don’t I remember how it ends??” and then get 30 pages in and realize, “Oh ... that’s why. Fuck this author. Fuck this story.”

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Fact: Happy people don't kill their husbands.

We talk about how AO3 was created to be a safe haven for fanfiction authors, and not a safe haven for triggered readers.

But it can be both!

This is one circumstance where protecting readers will actually protect authors at the same time!

Allowing readers to permablock authors and tags reduces the likelyhood that readers will stumble upon a story that triggers them, which in turn shields authors from hostile audiences -- after all, you can't get at mad at a story that didn't show up in your fic search in the first place.

To borrow and re-contextualize an Elle Woods quote, creating a better user experience will make users less likely to lash out.

Block features will also make it easier for the volunteer staff to differentiate between readers who are genuinely malicious, and readers who are just fed up of being blindsided by the same triggering content every time they do a casual fic search.

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Speaking as someone who lived through multiple LiveJournal racewanks -- I read a lot of racist fic LJ without confronting any fanfic author directly, until one day I just fucking snapped and typed up a whole ass diatribe in someone's story comments and suddenly I was on fandom wank. And honestly her story wasn't even close to the most racist fanfic I'd read. It was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

Obviously racism must be addressed.

Less obvious is how. I used to think the only way to address racism in fandom was by writing angry diatribes in the comment sections of individual racist fanfic. I do still think individual callouts have a role in addressing racism. But I no longer think that’s the only, or even one of the better ways of addressing fandom racism. 

Systemic fandom racism needs to be addressed at the community level, with infrastructure.

Providing nonwhite fans with the tools to avoid triggering racist content and protect themselves from racist harassment will do way more for POC in fandom than targeting individual racist commenters, or individual racist stories.

TL&DR:

What do we want? Blocking and blacklisting functions! When do we want them? NOW!









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So there's this a kerfuffle in tumblr's art community right now. And by art community I mean digital fanart community. Art posts get way more likes than reblogs. A lot of tumblr artists are really pissed off about this, because "if you really liked my art you'd promote it." To me, these numbers just reflect the stark reality of how feedback works on the internet -- you always get more views than likes. You always get more likes than comments. You always get more comments than promotions (except on tumblr, where it's actually easier to promote a post than it is to comment on it).

To the tumblr art community, however, these numbers represent a "toxic culture" of selfish consumerism. I saw a post literally telling people who like art posts without reblogging them that "you're the reason this website is dying."

Arrogant and delusional. I've written about my thoughts on the subject at length [here, here].

In this post, I just want to talk here about my general takeaways re: this kerfuffle.

Tumblr visual artists view fandom as a market. They view tumblr fandom as a place for content creators to find potential customers and clients. I assume money is the end goal, or they wouldn't be so upset at the lack of promotion. There's a general attitude of "if you don't pay us fairly we'll strike."

This is so diametrically opposed to my understanding of how fandom works, and why I choose to participate in it. I do art professionally. Fandom is my escape from the art market. Fandom is my vacation away from customers and clients. Over the years my main contributions to fandom have been 1) vidding and 2) meta writing and to a lesser extent 3) fanfiction and in my mind, the purpose of the first two especially is to instigate conversations. In my mind, the purpose of good art in general is to instigate conversations -- to spark new ideas and ways of thinking.

I think, whether you write meta, or you talk about your headcanons, or write fic, put together recommendation posts, or make fanart, or whatever -- we're all participating in the same conversation. We're all contributors to that conversation. Lurkers are just people who haven't found a voice yet. No one is a customer or a client. No one is a selfish consumer. Fandom is not a market.

Fandom is a town meeting.

I think this particular kerfuffle is the first thing that's really made me feel like I don't belong on tumblr, moreso even than the porn ban or any of the other tumblr wanks I've been involved in. It makes me want to unfollow every fanartist I follow on tumblr and blacklist the fanart tag. I look at these people who supposedly share my interests, who are in the same fandom communities I am in, and their reasons for being here are anathema to me.

They're not here to have conversations. They're here to become influencers. They think I'm morally obligated to help them become influencers. They want to talk at me, instead of to me. I find this attitude grotesque.

I think this larger conflict also ties in to the whole "Why won't you let us link our patreons on AO3" mini-kerfuffle which I've also talked about (here)


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