Last day of do-nothing
Jan. 17th, 2005 12:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lierdumoaJust found out my co-op server has, like, all of Ranma 1/2. Good anime I suppose, but nothing will ever own my soul like One Piece, or Saiyuki for that matter.
Got some random Hakkai musings.
Like, I dunno if anyone here went to church when they were a little kid. Probably a lot of you. Neither of my parents were particularly religious, but I got sent to Catholic school because the public schools in the area were ass, and so of course, going to church was part of the curriculum.
I remember sitting there, bored out of my mind, and thinking that the worst possible thing I could do would be to stand up and yell, "Fuck" at the top of my lungs. And suddenly, I'd be terrified of actually doing it. I'd sit really still for fear of loud curse words just popping out of my mouth against my will. Hypochondriacal tourettes.
See, I figure Hakkai's got hypochondriacal homicidal tourettes. Like when Gojyo's ex-boyfriend Banri rode into town and started annoying Hakkai and Hakkai was all, "Please don't make me angry" -- because, you see, I think Gojyo would be upset if I just snapped and killed you. Ooops?
Except the fear here for Hakkai seems less irrational because he has actually snapped and killed people before. Anyway, that's my theory on why he's so polite all the time. He spends much of the day tensed up like a bored schoolgirl in the middle of church.
Isn't my brain fun?
You know, I really like Hakkai, cause the snapping and killing thing nonwithstanding, he really reminds me a lot of Ben Fraser from due South. And the polite thing nonwithstanding, he really reminds me a lot of me. Not that I'd ever snap and kill people. More that I can easily picture myself doing lots of evil things, though I manage to restrain myself most of the time. Like that one time on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
vidding that someone made a 9/11 tribute vid using Sarah McLachlan music and news footage as source, and I very nearly gave into the urge to leave a comment that read: OMG FIREMEN+RUBBLE=OTP4EVA!!!!1!
See, the fun never ends in my brain.
There's a hummingbird outside my window.
Where was I?
Ah, yes. Hakkai. He's so pretty, isn't he? And he has so much angst. And moral ambiguity. I remember overhearing one of my sister's friends discussing one of my sister's acquaintances saying, "It's not that I don't think she deserved what I said about her. It's that I don't want to be the kind of person who would say those things." Hakkai doesn't feel bad for the thousand youkai he's killed. He feels bad for being the kind of person who could kill a thousand youkai and not feel bad about it. But that's what he is. He was born all imbalanced. More evil in him than good. He just tries so hard to be better than he is, and even succeeds most of the time. It makes you just want to hug him, you know?
And hope he won't snap and kill you.
Got some random Hakkai musings.
Like, I dunno if anyone here went to church when they were a little kid. Probably a lot of you. Neither of my parents were particularly religious, but I got sent to Catholic school because the public schools in the area were ass, and so of course, going to church was part of the curriculum.
I remember sitting there, bored out of my mind, and thinking that the worst possible thing I could do would be to stand up and yell, "Fuck" at the top of my lungs. And suddenly, I'd be terrified of actually doing it. I'd sit really still for fear of loud curse words just popping out of my mouth against my will. Hypochondriacal tourettes.
See, I figure Hakkai's got hypochondriacal homicidal tourettes. Like when Gojyo's ex-
Except the fear here for Hakkai seems less irrational because he has actually snapped and killed people before. Anyway, that's my theory on why he's so polite all the time. He spends much of the day tensed up like a bored schoolgirl in the middle of church.
Isn't my brain fun?
You know, I really like Hakkai, cause the snapping and killing thing nonwithstanding, he really reminds me a lot of Ben Fraser from due South. And the polite thing nonwithstanding, he really reminds me a lot of me. Not that I'd ever snap and kill people. More that I can easily picture myself doing lots of evil things, though I manage to restrain myself most of the time. Like that one time on
vidding that someone made a 9/11 tribute vid using Sarah McLachlan music and news footage as source, and I very nearly gave into the urge to leave a comment that read: OMG FIREMEN+RUBBLE=OTP4EVA!!!!1!See, the fun never ends in my brain.
There's a hummingbird outside my window.
Where was I?
Ah, yes. Hakkai. He's so pretty, isn't he? And he has so much angst. And moral ambiguity. I remember overhearing one of my sister's friends discussing one of my sister's acquaintances saying, "It's not that I don't think she deserved what I said about her. It's that I don't want to be the kind of person who would say those things." Hakkai doesn't feel bad for the thousand youkai he's killed. He feels bad for being the kind of person who could kill a thousand youkai and not feel bad about it. But that's what he is. He was born all imbalanced. More evil in him than good. He just tries so hard to be better than he is, and even succeeds most of the time. It makes you just want to hug him, you know?
And hope he won't snap and kill you.
