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lierdumoaFuck. I accidentally deleted this whole entry and am rewriting it. This is not my day.
Okay, so I went to see Last Samurai with a friend named Christian. Before that we went to a Mexican restaurant for dinner. Somehow, during dinner, we ended up discussing a mutual acquaintance by the name of Kyle.
Some relevant information about Kyle: He is the biggest manwhore that ever lived. He had a crush on me a few months ago. I mean, he tries to get into every girl's pants, but I'm fairly certain he actually had a crush on me. It was not reciprocated. In fact, I find him rather obnoxious. Also? He has a predilection for eating pussy. It's his hobby. His favorite thing. And he loves to discuss it.
Somehow all of this came up in my conversation with Christian. How?!? How?!? I don't know -- in fact, I'm trying to block the whole thing out.
Okay first off, I'm rather inexperienced when it comes to sex. I have never had my pussy eaten, to be frank. However, discussing this with Christian made me feel like I was defiling an innocent. Christian = wholesome, pure, geeky, geeky, and again pure. Jesusfuck, but this puppy probably masturbates less than I do.
Not good.
So I left him a message on AIM last night (very, very early this morning, actually). I got his away message. His away message in which he told me he loved me. Now, I don't know him all that well, so I can't figure out what he meant by this. The message could have been stated in a joking manner -- a reference to how pathetically grateful he was that I rescued him from the crushing horror of finals by inviting him to a movie. The message could also have been his not-so-subtle way of informing me that his affections for me are more than platonic.
I'm having a panic attack. It's a very quiet panic attack. So quiet only my friends list can hear it. But a panic attack nonetheless.
My feelings towards him? Very, very platonic. I don't just see him as my brother. I see him as my little brother. My wholesome, pure, geeky, geeky, and again pure little brother.
And he was chivalrous. He fucking paid. For everything. *cringe* *cringe* and again *cringe*
Hear me blathering neurotically -- "This was not a date! This was not a date! It was not! Please God!!!!!!"
As![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
permetaform would say -- ::facepalms::
So this is what I'm going to do. I'm going to pretend I never saw this away message. I'm going to stick my fingers in my ears and sing very loudly for about fifteen minutes. After all, when in doubt, evade, evade, evade.
In other news, I just read Keep Your Head Down by Kat Reitz and Tzigane on SSA. I love this fandom. Nothing is better than novel-length gay fanfiction. Except, perhaps, *well-written* novel length gay fanfiction. Adult rated, of course, but not excessively porny. Which was a good thing. I wasn't really in the mood for porny.
[Edit] I should note that when I say porny I'm referring to style, as opposed to actual content. The content is definitely hardcore, however from the style, I did not get the impression that the sole intention was to turn readers on.
Reasons #658-660 why fanfiction is better than a trashy romance novel. Sex scenes that do not include cringeworthy euphemisms like *manhood.* Actual plot, beyond "two people destined for each other who defy their circumstances to live happily ever after." Hot guy-on-guy action. It's all about the homoerotic subtext baby, and the subtext is always delightfully overstated in WB dramas (they're pandering to their large female fanbase, I think). I mean, seriously -- how many times did Lex have to look Clark up and down in season one? I won't even start on the blatant eyefucking.
Futurefic. No Rift. Lionel is...somewhat human and bearable. Starts off with a kidnapping scenario -- those are always nice. As expected of these authors, everyone is well characterized. Dialogue is interesting. We get some fun times in Superman's ice fortress. Lex is yum, as always.
And did I mention novel length? I'm talking 600 KB worth of unicode text, here. Maaad long.
Apologies to anyone on my friends list who either doesn't read slash or doesn't read Smallville slash -- especially the two normal people on my friends list,evenstarjuliet and lelenevity, who do not read fanfiction. For many of the people I know via the internet, fanfic recommendations are actually newsworthy. For you, they're pure spam.
But hey -- it's livejournal. Spam is to be expected -- at least some of the time.
;o)
Oh, man, am I hungry. I haven't eaten since yesterday. Bah!
Okay, so I went to see Last Samurai with a friend named Christian. Before that we went to a Mexican restaurant for dinner. Somehow, during dinner, we ended up discussing a mutual acquaintance by the name of Kyle.
Some relevant information about Kyle: He is the biggest manwhore that ever lived. He had a crush on me a few months ago. I mean, he tries to get into every girl's pants, but I'm fairly certain he actually had a crush on me. It was not reciprocated. In fact, I find him rather obnoxious. Also? He has a predilection for eating pussy. It's his hobby. His favorite thing. And he loves to discuss it.
Somehow all of this came up in my conversation with Christian. How?!? How?!? I don't know -- in fact, I'm trying to block the whole thing out.
Okay first off, I'm rather inexperienced when it comes to sex. I have never had my pussy eaten, to be frank. However, discussing this with Christian made me feel like I was defiling an innocent. Christian = wholesome, pure, geeky, geeky, and again pure. Jesusfuck, but this puppy probably masturbates less than I do.
Not good.
So I left him a message on AIM last night (very, very early this morning, actually). I got his away message. His away message in which he told me he loved me. Now, I don't know him all that well, so I can't figure out what he meant by this. The message could have been stated in a joking manner -- a reference to how pathetically grateful he was that I rescued him from the crushing horror of finals by inviting him to a movie. The message could also have been his not-so-subtle way of informing me that his affections for me are more than platonic.
I'm having a panic attack. It's a very quiet panic attack. So quiet only my friends list can hear it. But a panic attack nonetheless.
My feelings towards him? Very, very platonic. I don't just see him as my brother. I see him as my little brother. My wholesome, pure, geeky, geeky, and again pure little brother.
And he was chivalrous. He fucking paid. For everything. *cringe* *cringe* and again *cringe*
Hear me blathering neurotically -- "This was not a date! This was not a date! It was not! Please God!!!!!!"
As
permetaform would say -- ::facepalms::So this is what I'm going to do. I'm going to pretend I never saw this away message. I'm going to stick my fingers in my ears and sing very loudly for about fifteen minutes. After all, when in doubt, evade, evade, evade.
In other news, I just read Keep Your Head Down by Kat Reitz and Tzigane on SSA. I love this fandom. Nothing is better than novel-length gay fanfiction. Except, perhaps, *well-written* novel length gay fanfiction. Adult rated, of course, but not excessively porny. Which was a good thing. I wasn't really in the mood for porny.
[Edit] I should note that when I say porny I'm referring to style, as opposed to actual content. The content is definitely hardcore, however from the style, I did not get the impression that the sole intention was to turn readers on.
Reasons #658-660 why fanfiction is better than a trashy romance novel. Sex scenes that do not include cringeworthy euphemisms like *manhood.* Actual plot, beyond "two people destined for each other who defy their circumstances to live happily ever after." Hot guy-on-guy action. It's all about the homoerotic subtext baby, and the subtext is always delightfully overstated in WB dramas (they're pandering to their large female fanbase, I think). I mean, seriously -- how many times did Lex have to look Clark up and down in season one? I won't even start on the blatant eyefucking.
Futurefic. No Rift. Lionel is...somewhat human and bearable. Starts off with a kidnapping scenario -- those are always nice. As expected of these authors, everyone is well characterized. Dialogue is interesting. We get some fun times in Superman's ice fortress. Lex is yum, as always.
And did I mention novel length? I'm talking 600 KB worth of unicode text, here. Maaad long.
Apologies to anyone on my friends list who either doesn't read slash or doesn't read Smallville slash -- especially the two normal people on my friends list,
evenstarjuliet and lelenevity, who do not read fanfiction. For many of the people I know via the internet, fanfic recommendations are actually newsworthy. For you, they're pure spam. But hey -- it's livejournal. Spam is to be expected -- at least some of the time.
;o)
Oh, man, am I hungry. I haven't eaten since yesterday. Bah!
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Date: 2003-12-19 10:12 am (UTC)Ah yes, gay Superman porn. ::sighs::
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Date: 2003-12-19 01:09 pm (UTC)And we are definitely two of the coolest people to come out of OLPH. Okay, I'm having a nostalgic moment. Wait. No I'm not. I hated that place.
Day care. *shudder*
I shall do my best to keep rockin.
;o)
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Date: 2003-12-19 03:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-19 03:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-20 04:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-20 01:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-20 01:13 pm (UTC)I'm pretty sure, though, that atheist is when you believe there isn't a God. Me? I'm big on proof, and there's no proof either way. I think agnostic might be the more correct term, but I'm actually not sure.
Whichever.
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Date: 2003-12-21 01:01 pm (UTC)