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Nov. 16th, 2004
stupid fucking vid
Nov. 16th, 2004 07:50 pmOkay, so someone explain to me this whole "finishing a vid is like giving birth" thing. I don't get it. Cause I'm not feeling any post vidding depression. In fact, the only emotion I can properly identify right now is hatred.
Does anyone else finish a vid and, like, want to kill it? Wish it were human so they could strangle it to death with their bare hands? No? Just me, huh?
Does this mean if I ever have children I'm going to want to murder them?
Like, I hate the ending. I really, really, really hate it. I think it sucks, for one thing. It doesn't seem to flow. I didn't get to fit in half the shit I thought I'd be able to fit in.
I'm DEEPLY, DEEPLY upset that I didn't get to work in the shot of Dom grabbing Letty's ass. Okay, so it's a slash vid. There's really no reason to use that scene. But it's, like, my favorite scene in the entire movie. I am heartbroken, I tell you. Heartbroken.
Okay, whatever. I'll fix this shit later. After my beta's look at it. Cause I really can't look at it anymore tonight. I'll probably spend the night reading Due South fic and poking at my Sanzo/Goku fic that was supposed to be a PWP and yet remains depressingly PG-13.
Real Life Update. I'm reapplying to college! As a freshmen. Though it occurs to me I've probably accumulated enough units, either through AP tests or simply taking college classes, to probably be able to apply as a sophomore. Yeah. I've got approximately two weeks to get my shit together. And then mail it. I'll be applying to USC, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and San Francisco State. I doubt I'll have a problem getting into any of them but, you know -- just in case.
Why those in particular? Apparently they all have good film departments (well, except UC Berkeley, but I can transfer if I get into Berkeley). See, after a few months of whining, "Why can't I vid for a living?" I found myself staring at the Spiderman 2 teaser/trailer and thinking -- "I could do that."
"...I could get paid to do that."
So...yeah. Next semester I'll take some intro classes at a local film school. Next fall I'll be re-starting college as a film major. My parents should be very pleased considering the college I originally got accepted to was MIT and even doing a whole extra year is bound to be far, far cheaper at virtually any other college you can think of.
Heh -- I'm this much of a freak with vidding as a hobby. Just imagine what a freak I'll be when I'm doing this shit as a career.
All of you tremble in ph34r.
Does anyone else finish a vid and, like, want to kill it? Wish it were human so they could strangle it to death with their bare hands? No? Just me, huh?
Does this mean if I ever have children I'm going to want to murder them?
Like, I hate the ending. I really, really, really hate it. I think it sucks, for one thing. It doesn't seem to flow. I didn't get to fit in half the shit I thought I'd be able to fit in.
I'm DEEPLY, DEEPLY upset that I didn't get to work in the shot of Dom grabbing Letty's ass. Okay, so it's a slash vid. There's really no reason to use that scene. But it's, like, my favorite scene in the entire movie. I am heartbroken, I tell you. Heartbroken.
Okay, whatever. I'll fix this shit later. After my beta's look at it. Cause I really can't look at it anymore tonight. I'll probably spend the night reading Due South fic and poking at my Sanzo/Goku fic that was supposed to be a PWP and yet remains depressingly PG-13.
Real Life Update. I'm reapplying to college! As a freshmen. Though it occurs to me I've probably accumulated enough units, either through AP tests or simply taking college classes, to probably be able to apply as a sophomore. Yeah. I've got approximately two weeks to get my shit together. And then mail it. I'll be applying to USC, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and San Francisco State. I doubt I'll have a problem getting into any of them but, you know -- just in case.
Why those in particular? Apparently they all have good film departments (well, except UC Berkeley, but I can transfer if I get into Berkeley). See, after a few months of whining, "Why can't I vid for a living?" I found myself staring at the Spiderman 2 teaser/trailer and thinking -- "I could do that."
"...I could get paid to do that."
So...yeah. Next semester I'll take some intro classes at a local film school. Next fall I'll be re-starting college as a film major. My parents should be very pleased considering the college I originally got accepted to was MIT and even doing a whole extra year is bound to be far, far cheaper at virtually any other college you can think of.
Heh -- I'm this much of a freak with vidding as a hobby. Just imagine what a freak I'll be when I'm doing this shit as a career.
All of you tremble in ph34r.